The baseball team won today! They mercied the Rapids, both games! We made up the first game that was rained out...so yeah! It was cool...still going for first in the league. So that's super. I'm pumped!! But, we're off to see X Men 2 now...I will rant later, I'm sure that someone will give me something to complain about.

Ah, the Daily Rant. Today I shall rant about...friends. Friends are weird. I love being with people. And being the person they can come to for anything, talk to, trust, depend on...but I can NOT open up to people! I really can't...it's impossible. There are a few people that know more about me than anyone else, but there is not a soul that gets it all. My Dear Brother/Best Friend comes very close, but it's not like I go and tell him everything. I mean, I probably would given the opportunity, but since I don't have that option, then I do not.

Weirdly enough, it's a couple of people that I haven't even known that long that know more about my family life than anyone else. That is the hardest for me to talk about. Family is one of the subjects I don't like to discuss except in moderation and with much refraining. There are so many things that I can't tell people for fear of seeming whiny (did I spell that correctly?) or obnoxious. Which is funny, because I'm sure that other people feel the same way that I do, but I encourage them to open up anyway. I mean, I know what it is like to keep everything inside and just want to explode. I've been there. It's not fun. And it continues to not be fun, as I continue to not open up to people.

Finding the right time to Open Up is also key. There are times when I want to talk to someone so badly, feel this burning need to talk, and there is only a person or two that I could possibly talk to, and the moment is not right. They just lost a game, won't answer their cell phone, whatever. Not only that, but it's not like I'm the only one of my friends with stupid stuff to deal with. I feel as though I have it pretty easy, actually. Not so much because I have fewer problems than others, but because I feel like I have any number of people that would be more than willing to listen to me. It's weird though. I don't just want someone to listen. I don't really want advice either. When I come to someone with a problem, I want the way to fix it. Not a "maybe" or a "you can try this"...I want a "this is guaranteed as long as you do it." That would be ideal...

So why do I keep looking for the human that can do that for me? I don't know! I know I'm not going to find it! I could at least settle for something close, or setmy standards a little...more possible. Because finding a human that just magically holds all answers IS impossible, no matter what silly people will quote about "anything's possible"...I need to trust in God more. I have faith in God. I have asked Jesus into my heart, I believe that He is the Almighty Ruler...I think the Bible is pretty cool to read sometimes, actually, hehehe...I try to pray every night. It makes me feel better when I can discuss the days annoyances with someOne who won't comment when I don't want them to, and it brings a little comfort to think that, when I ask for something and don't get it, that He's got something better planned for me sometime. Hopefully soon, right?

God is not a bad friend. He's the closest thing to Perfect that I've got, huh!? However, God doesn't TALK to me...He might have all of the answers, I have no doubt in my mind that He does, but He sure doesn't tell them to me! Very disappointing...I just want some guidance, man! I know you're helping me out constantly, but it's so hard to go through every day constantly wondering when whatever I want to happen is going to happen! I try to trust in God, I do trust Him, I just am selfish and greedy and want my answers now! Grr!

Back to friendships of the mortal realm...I was just talking to Hannah about this. I take a Middle-of-the-Road stance a lot. Like, I won't pick one side or the other, because I see both sides of something, and I can see the good and bad of each side, so it makes it so hard to have to decide which one is right! Ah! I am excited to take an ethics class!

Well, this rant has straggled a bit...and I'm not letting it flow very well...my thoughts aren't processing very quickly...I suppose that for now, I shall go. More at a later time. (Just for the record, I am becoming obsessed with these Blogs!) Farewell!

Word...This is a link to Martin's blog!! Everyone should go see it, it is coolness!

Hello! Today is a baseball game...I'm sort of excited! It is against Eaton Rapids, will be a good game, and put us further into the running for League Champs, go us! I am really becoming attatched to this baseball stuff, hehehe...I had never even really watched a baseball game until I was a soph., and now I'm a stat girl...it's weirdness. Baseball stats are really difficult! There is so much to keep organized, and remember...I'll get it someday. Not that I have that long...but maybe this will open up opportunities...perhaps I will keep stats of some sort at college. I don't know how that stuff works. I'm sure the coaches probably have all of that taken care of...but the thought is nice. I plan on coming back to The Wood a lot next year anyway, so being a stat keeper for a college team would not work that well, I couldn't imagine...but I have to go figure out some songs, so I will talk more later!

I'm going to rant. Don't you HATE IT when people complain about something that they have been saying they want for a long time!? Oh my goodness, it's like, "Hello! You've been wanting this since I've known you and now you can have it and you're finding fault with it! Geez!" It wouldn't be such a big deal, but so many people do it all the time! Like, the people who join a sports team. They join it, all set to play, and they practice - sometimes do their best, sometimes not - then regardless of that, let's say they don't get to start at the beginning of the season. Suddenly, it's "Whatever, I need to start, this is bull, I'm getting cheated!" Then, 2 weeks and hours of complaining later, someone gets injured and they get to be the starter. First time out there, coach yells at them for something they did wrong. Now all of a sudden they don't want to start, it's annoying, and - this is the best - coach has no right to yell at them for something that is not their fault. Are You Kidding Me. I guess that's the real beef...sports. I love being with my friends, athletes, I love being their pseudotrainer...but goodness, I just want to beat them in the face when they complain all of the time! It's funny for some of them, or in some situations, but when it's a constant thing, grr...I think that I'm done for now. I could probably rant for much longer on this, so I'll probably come back to it...farewell!

Hi again!! Today was fun...we hung out, I didn't have to go to school until 9:30 this morning and was STILL late! Jeff did actually come over, and he scadalized me on the Internet! Hehehe...and now I'm talking to people, trying to determine when to start the new blogs...since I am hooked now, I must start all kinds! But, I will go for now. I was toying with the idea of doing a daily rant...so I might start that soon! Farewell!

This thing is nuts!! I sort of like it...however, I am computer illiterate, so learning the ropes of this could be interesting!

Hi! How are things with everyone!? I am chillin' here...I have no clue what a Blog is! This was an impulse thing...Martin told me about it...I'm probably going to get hooked now, hehehe...so - Enjoy!